Sometimes when I'm thinking or writing

I write or think like Charlie from The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. I don't know if this just comes from reading the book or whether something of his way of thinking is in me anyway. I think the awkwardness and the always just wanting clarity is similar.

A few bits of ideas for writing are circulating in my head, I hope I do some more soon.

Quite miss being an outsider in a mainstream group like at westhill. I know you wouldn't immediately call westhill crowd mainstream but if you think about it they are/were. It was fun because I decided to just talk to them about things I was interested in despite the fact that really they'd rather just talk about cider, weed and their emotional problems. Usually they would humour me and it'd be quite fun. I'd get them talking about the stars and causality and in return they'd have me trashed on cider talking about my emotional problems.

Music

I like music because it makes me feel more like a human and less like a boring passive little robot. And it makes the world less mathematical and that's a good thing.